I'm Scared

Today I am 16 weeks pregnant.

I love my baby so very much.

and 

I am scared. 

Up until this point my pregnancy has physically been fine. I have had really bad nausea, acne, and I have been incredibly tired, but those things are not problems in pregnancy- those are symptoms of pregnancy- symptoms that I am so thankful to have. This pregnancy has been difficult on me emotionally because I am scared that I will lose this baby like I lost Robby.

On Wednesday morning I woke up to a sharp pain in my belly- a pain that I knew meant something was wrong. I called my doctor and they had me go in to check my cervix. 

The good news is that my cervix is still long and closed, but the bad news is that I have already started to have contractions. Yes, some people contract throughout their pregnancy, but since I went into preterm labor with Robby we are all on high alert.  My doctor gave me a much higher dose of progesterone, told me to drink tons of water, take Benadryl (to help calm my uterus,  and take it really easy. 

Today I went back into the doctor's office because I am now 16 weeks pregnant, which means, that I got to start my p17 shots. The purpose of the p17 shot that I am going to take every week is that it will hopefully help calm my uterus down to keep me pregnant longer. I will take these clear up until I deliver Baby B. The shot goes into a muscle, and the liquid is really thick, so it does hurt going in and left me sore, but I am certainly not complaining and I would gladly take the shot in my eye if that’s what it took to keep me pregnant until after Thanksgiving. 

Since my goal is Thanksgiving I am now officially half way, but even though I should feel relieved, I am scared. I am so very scared. The contractions brought back the memories and emotions from when I went into labor with Robby. It is very important that the contractions stop. Baby B needs ALOT more time to grow and develop. So, Baby B and I could use your prayers right now. 

 We need prayers that the contractions stop, prayers that the p17 shots do their job, prayers that God leads my doctors in making the right decisions, and prayers that Tanner and I will be blessed with our take home baby.

Psalm 107:28-30 Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble, and he delivered them from their distress. He made the storm be still, and the waves of the sea were hushed. Then they were glad that the waters were quiet, and he brought them to their desired haven

16 Weeks

Baby B 15 weeks 5 days